Introspection Category

I feel like I’m not doing anything well

“I feel like I’m not doing anything well.” I was sitting in my advisor’s office at the University of Colorado.  It was late April, I was supposed to be close to finishing an annotated bibliography for my thesis. My son was struggling in school with hyperactivity, which involved lots of communication with school.  On top of […]

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Plus-sized insecurities

I hate going to work events with my husband. I have never told him this. I usually go with him anyway. My lack of desire to go to work events with him has nothing to do with him. My husband loves introducing me to his friends. He often can’t wait to show me off. That […]

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Blogging does matter

Blogging does matter. I haven’t mentioned this before, but I am writing a thesis for my masters degree. My thesis involves researching how people talk about obesity. That is actually what inspired me to blog about my weight. I was skeptical, but curious about why people blog. In the process, I discovered something: blogging really […]

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I will live life after this diet…

Today, my cousin posted this article on Facebook: #FitFam: 11 Reasons Why The Fitness Culture On Social Media Needs To Be Stopped.”  I was curious about the article, because my cousin is a fitness nut.  He posts about what he eats, what he’s doing at the gym, what other people are doing wrong at the […]

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More to life than a number

I am a big advocate of learning to eat what your body needs and letting go of willpower.  I just came across an awesome TED talk today about how dieting and willpower doesn’t help you lose weight.  Instead, we need to listen to our bodies.  (Yes, I know I post a lot from TED–I love […]

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Fat vs. Muscle

Today my friend posted a link to a blog about building muscle on Facebook.  I perused the blog post for a little bit.  (It was a little ranty for my taste.)  As I scrolled down the screen, I saw a comparison of fat vs. muscle.  Here is a similar picture from a Shaklee consultant: Wow. […]

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More than a number

A friend of mine sent me this cartoon from ToothpasteForDinner.com: I struggled to maintain my weight for a long time.  For a while, I thought that there was something wrong with me.  I was ashamed of my size (even when I weighed 155).  I was not far from my goal weight, but I just knew […]

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It’s not about willpower

Willpower.  It is what every fat person wishes they had more of.  I want to challenge the idea that losing weight takes more willpower. I used to believe that every person should eat a certain kind of food to be healthy.  When I believed that, I gained weight at a constant pace.  What if being […]

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Let them eat cheesecake!

There is nothing that I like more than cheesecake.  There will be cheesecake in heaven–there just has to be.  I have committed to not eating sugar, so I know that cheesecake is off limits. (I know that there are sugar free cheesecakes, but I don’t like sugar substitutes, so why waste the calories?)  My favorite […]

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Wide Angle

This is the photo that is on my new light rail pass: What in the world?  As if I didn’t already cringe every time I see a photo of myself.  It’s bad enough that I have to accept normal photos of myself which testify of an unavoidable truth about my size, but now, to add […]

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