Sabotage

Sorry for the silence.  I have been both sick and super busy at work.  I haven’t been able to stay awake after my kids go to bed.

This week was a rough week.  I was under the weather, and my husband had to cook.  One night my family ate pizza.  I ate it, too.  They had ice cream with fudge sauce.  I ate a small amount, but I ate some.  I was too tired to make my own food.  I should have had easy to grab food, but I didn’t at that time.  I was grateful when I stayed steady at 298.  I am still under 300.

I look at each week as a learning experience.  I now know that if I am super tired or busy or sick, then I am tempted just because I don’t want to have to cook anything.  I need to always have easy to grab items laying around the house.

So, I just had to get something off my chest.  It was hard enough to find an eating plan that works for me.  What is up with all of the unsolicited advice that seems to come with it?  And why does everyone seem to be so invested in how I eat?

I was eating eggs the other day, and my aunt was all nosy about it.  She wanted to know why I was just eating eggs.  Now, there have been plenty of times that I just ate eggs when I WASN’T on a special eating plan. Once I said that I was following a low carb diet, she started ranting on about how I shouldn’t do that.  Blah blah blah.

I was a vegetarian for a year.  I had a headache for the entire year, but I was convinced that being a vegetarian was the only way to eat.  I lost about 30 pounds that year.  (I will share that story at a later time.)  The entire time, my mom complained that I was losing too much weight.  I went from 185 to 155 at 5’4″.  I wasn’t even in the healthy range for my size, but my mom acted like I was one step away from anorexia the whole time.  The funny thing was, she wasn’t worried about the headaches; she was worried about me being too thin.

The other day, I was eating with a friend.  Of course, she notices that I am eating an omelette and not eating my hash browns.  She is on a crunchy, clean eating kick.  She started going on about how carbs are not my problem.  When I am under 200 pounds, I will worry about how to eat more carbs and put them in my diet.  Right now, I am trying to get down to a reasonable weight.

What is it about watching your weight that makes people want to worry about what other people are eating?  The same people seem to not worry when we are at a fun function together eating junk food that is bad for us, but if I try to do something to help myself, then they are all over me.

I think that this is why so many people have a hard time losing weight: sabotage.  Our friends and family don’t mean to sabotage us, but they are used to the free-loving, non-constrained version of ourselves.  Sometimes, I think that they use their overweight friends as a safety blanket.  Well, I might be overweight, but Liz is still bigger than I am.  I know how it works.  I used to be the same way.

So, I decided that I am going to plow forward,  I am going to listen to my friends and family, pretend to acknowledge them, and then do what I know is best for my own health.

 

5 Comments on “Sabotage

  1. Family and friends can be the biggest traps along the journey. They really do mean well. I’ve learned to smile at them and then follow my plan. As far as your weekend experience, I’ve discovered that being sick and tired are a huge detriment to diet plans. Resolve is down and energy is down. It’s only temporary and you’ll be fine when you feel better.

  2. I’m really impressed with your writing skills as well as
    with the layout on your blog. Is this a paid theme or did you modify it yourself?
    Either way keep up the nice quality writing, it’s rare to see
    a nice blog like this one these days.

    • Thank you! I teach writing at the University of Colorado. Well, I did teach there until I decided to take a year off to work with my kids and their ADHD. As for my blog, this is a paid theme that I customized with a cloud photo. I have that same photo on my desktop. I find it relaxing.

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