It took me a while to get to the computer this evening. I was watching the social media fallout from the Biggest Loser finale. I am not going to comment on it directly, because I’m sure many people have not watched it yet. I’m just not sure if the show pushed the contestants too far or if they did it themselves…
I have really struggled with starting my new diet. For years. I was going to start initially in 2011, but I just couldn’t get my act together. I was scared, because I sacrificed a lot to start our family’s business. Then, I sacrificed for years while having our four children. I was not ready to sacrifice food. I just couldn’t do it.
Good food has been a guest in all of my family events since birth. In fact, the quality of a family event was judged by the quality of food served. I had to accept that I had to let go of that idea of food as comfort to start this diet. I was holding onto it. I couldn’t imagine letting it go.
I’ve lost weight before. I even kept it off for a few years, but I still clung to food for comfort. Despite my association of food as comfort, I was able to keep weight off. I didn’t have to worry about feeding other people. I just had to worry about myself. Now I need to find a way for this to work with my family. I just didn’t know how to do that.
Then, on Sunday I had a breakthrough. Nothing exciting happened. No one encouraged me. All of the sudden, I just realized that I am ready. I knew that I was ready for my journey.
I don’t know what was so freeing about that moment, but since then I have not struggled with food. I know that I am ready. Perhaps blogging helped me get in the right frame of mind. I’m not sure, but I know that I am ready for this now.
Let’s do this.